I know the struggle. I know how easy it is to go from feeling like you got this, to believing you have no idea how you’re going to make it until bedtime.
The times when dinner needs to be made, baths need to be given, and beds need to be filled with sleepy children, always remind me of how alone I am. I begin to think “if I only had someone to help, this would be less difficult.”
Once I finally accomplish all of my tasks and lie down in my own bed, it’s then that I begin thinking “maybe I can do this on my own”. It is easy to allow thoughts to consume me and bring me down. After dwelling on the negatives, I begin to realize how many positives there are in my life. Focusing on the positives is a learned behavior that takes time and discipline to attain. However, I know how difficult every day can be as a single mom, and each day can bring new challenges.
I know how it feels to wake up each morning, tired.
I know how it feels to wake up early and make breakfast, pack lunches, wake up the kids, and most of the time have to ignore your own appearance.
I know how it feels to work a full time job to provide for yourself and children, thinking “if only I had a husband to help provide, this wouldn’t be so heavy on my shoulders”.
I know how it feels to become frustrated when the kids wreck the house that you just cleaned the day before.
I know how it feels to do the mundane tasks day after day wondering if things will ever get better.
I know how it feels when the kids are sleeping and you lie in bed awake because your heart aches having to sleep alone. You’re so exhausted, but unable to sleep because worry consumes you. Worries of being the only provider, the spiritual leader, the maid, the chef, and the only one who will have to take responsibility if you mess up, wondering how long you’ll be able to keep going.
I know, because I used to carry the weight of all of this on my shoulders too.
However, something else I know, is that although we feel alone and obligated to handle all of this on our own, we don’t have to. We can surrender it all to God. When we turn our worries into prayers, we gain a strength we never knew existed. Psalm 4:8 says “In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, Lord, make me dwell in safety.” When the weight of the world is on our shoulders, we need to take a moment to pray for this peace, so that we will be able to rest, knowing that God will keep us safe.
Philippians 4:19 tells us “And my God will meet all of your needs according to the riches of His glory in Christ Jesus.” We do not have to live with worry because we can trust God to meet ALL of our needs.
Loneliness, fear of the unknown, financial stress, single parenting, brokenness, and heartache, God has a solution, and will meet each need.
Fall into the arms of Jesus.
Let Him hold you until the pain goes away.
I know this single mom life is rough. When we focus on God and His plan for our life, we discover how to be content in this beautiful season of life.